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Day 68: The Valley of the Shadows of Death


Motto: “The only thing we have to fear is fear itself.”
(Franklin D. Roosevelt)


‘Though I walk through the Valley of the Shadows of Death, I will fear no evil, because I am with me! I have always feared being alone, and now that I am truly alone, in the most authentic way, I have realized that I have still value; that fear is useless, because I was loved from the beginning of Time. We cannot lose what is ours – and knowing that releases us from any kind of fear-bondage! What is meant to go – will go; what is meant to stay – will stay; and if by chance what was meant to stay – goes, then it will come back! What was meant to love you, will love you until the very end, no matter how developed you are or not; no matter how beautiful you are or not – because it is not dependent on outward circumstances!


In the darkest night of the Soul, I whisper to myself: Faint not! Hold on! Tomorrow comes the Song, the Joy! Or how a friend of mine would say: <<Mon cher, wait! Patience!>>’

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Steps towards Empowerment

The first time you fell down in Black Despair.

The first time you got betrayed by a Smiling Judas.

The first time you were Utterly Abandoned.

The first time your heart was cut by Sharp Thorns of Love.

 

They were all – transforming-Steps toward your Ultimate Empowerment.

Agents of Freedom destroying the filthy bonds of your inner-slavery.

Now – you are liberated!

Now – you are Whole!

 

The light that you were Diligently Seeking

Was always inside of Your Own Soul.

You are a Spiritual Sun

Sparkling in a Crepuscular, Desolate World.

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Day 73: The fear and the trap of the mind

Motto: “Do not dwell in the past; do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment.” (The Buddha)

‘I have got to the conclusion that there is a direct connection between the mind and our greatest fears. The mind is the bleak house of all fears, of all traumas. The mind is like a camera that films a scene and then recreates it over and over again, and garners its essence in different scenarios. If you do not master your mind, it will ruin your life, because it will teach you all lies. It will tell you that you are not sufficient; that you are ugly; that nobody can love you; that you are unworthy; that you cannot change! It will say every possible untruth, because it is a mirror that reflects your traumas! The mind has to be trained to mirror something else. You have to break through the veil of the apparent mind, and to get to a place of peace and love that is unshakable! There, you will find your true identity, your true self, which is not a “self”, but pure-consciousness. Then, you can heal yourself, and after healing, you will be able to live your life the way you want, in a powerful and meaningful way! Nobody can set you free, only you can. They are all guides; they are all doctors of the soul, in the sense that they will try to bind your wounds and make your path much easier, but the truth is that only you can heal yourself, both consciously and unconsciously!’

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When the end started to begin

‘I was sad. It wasn’t like I didn’t expect it. But it was still so painful, due to the great amount of attachment involved. Can we be totally detached while being involved? No. So, there I was: profoundly attached. But with something that was no longer beneficial. Or, maybe, it had never been beneficial. And I always knew that. And that was the drama.

But when the end reached its apex, I felt a great inner freedom. Despite all pain, all attachment, and all wasted time. It was good that something like that ended, because it was a new beginning. It never really finishes – life. You only jump from one point to another. And, knowing this, you can have the right attitude in front of loss. Knowing this, you don’t drown in despair.

When the end starts to begin, trust whatever is happening to you. The ugliest part of the process is being confused: distrust consumes you inside, like a secret cancer-lump sucking the life out of you! The best thing to do is to maintain your faith: in God, destiny, your own soul. Trust – and things will become clearer in time.

-When the end starts to begin, it’s a sign you have a chance for a better life!

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‘When you are trying to make it happen, it will not happen. You resist the Universe. You must do your inner work and accept what is happening. Create space around the connection, and then stay in truth and unconditional love. Share unconditional love and embrace the love you receive (conditional or unconditional). Give up sorrow in the now moment; search for joy: this is how you diminish resistance to the universal plan. Believe that God will take you where you must be; and, in His own timing, He will give you fulfillment. Follow your vision. Remember that the purpose comes above the person, but the person must self-love, in order to get there (at the fulfillment of the purpose). Stay in the truth; be totally transparent with others and with yourself!

The connection in itself does not represent much without the self-purge and cleansing. We are not here for a person; we are here for the entire humanity. You can deeply love someone else that is not your twin, and still have this connection with your twin. These situations are not exclusive. You can have this connection, and still have chemistry with other people, because this connection is not about chemistry or human-relational love; it is not even about your significant other, but it is about stripping yourself to the core of you, and about destroying deceit. It is about being totally transparent. That will feel like death in the beginning; that will kill you in the beginning, but it will heal you in the end.’

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Forgiving is to Be Aware

We all suffered an injustice. Either if it was an exterior circumstance, like getting fired or betrayed by a friend or lover, or an inner wound, such as unrequited love, we all felt the burn of a soul-cut. We all blamed others. We all experienced the feelings of rage and bitterness. We all regretted the occurrence, the fact that we opened-up to those people, and we all wanted to go back in time to change our ‘stupid’ decisions.

But, just ponder, for a moment: did you gain something from that incident? Did you become stronger, wiser, more loving towards your own being? If yes, then, let regrets go! You have chosen, at a soul-level, to go through that, even if you cannot comprehend it with your human mind, because you needed to change. Even if they meant your harm, in 3D, they have, in fact, propelled you towards your true essence: that of a victor!

Forgiving is to be aware that your happiness happens through growth, and growth happens through people and difficult situations. There is no need to be upset – for too long… It would be just as a tragicomic scene, in which a kid is crying because he fell while learning to cycle. It might have been painful, but the fun came after that. It is the same, at a spiritual level. Forgive and forget! Keep only the lesson; let the rest go!

The secret of existence is not the absence of pain, but the transformation of everything. Metamorphosing the venom in medicine will make you what you were meant to be: a Master. Did you let go, or are you still holding unto the past?

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Day 33: The Psychological Pit

Motto: “Good night, good night! Parting is such sweet sorrow, that I shall say good night till it be morrow.” (William Shakespeare)

‘I have realized something. I was speaking with the person that I have recently met, let’s call him “My Friend”. I was speaking with My Friend about the healing process that I need to go through, and he said to me something amazing. He said, “The pit does not exist. We were never in the pit. We only believed we were!” It hit me, like lightning! We were never in the pit, because the pit does not exist. The pit is psychological. Everything that is happening to you right now, all the pain of the loss – is psychological. The pit does not exist, because it is something related to the past, first of all. The pit does not exist, because you exist, and if you exist, then hope still exists! You lost nothing essential, as long as you did not lose yourself. The pit exists only in your mind. You enforce it. You give it power to grow, and to entangle you, to destroy you! You destroy yourself, not your twin, no matter what they have chosen!

As long as you are in the pit, you are not able to see the truth. You are trapped in a weird psychological thread made of regrets, “love” (feelings), hate, despair, self-degrading gestures, and actions. Did your twin leave you? That’s their choice. What you do with your life is up to you. Nobody says that it does not hurt, but in order to heal, you must understand that you are responsible for your own life, for your own happiness; you decide how to live and whom you love, or whom to love no more… The pit is an image of the dark-self, full with fear, guilt, rejection, and desperation. As long as you maintain the psychological hell within you, you will create a world around you that will fit the frequency that you are emanating.

If there is one thing that you can do in the pit it is to love – everybody, unconditionally. It is what took me out of the pit. If you emanate love, then you will attract love, and by it you will break free of the ego-chain-projection. Love yourself and love others unconditionally – that is how you will get out of the pit. Enforce your spirit every day; because the mind is subject to the spirit, and no matter how deep might be the pain that you are feeling, your ego will follow your spirit, if you act not according to your ego, but to spirit. Spirit is love – the equation is so simple.

My loved ones, you must try not to hold any negative feelings against anybody, and if you are still struggling with it, then forget about it all – and just give love. Love represents the stairs from hell to heaven. From an inner, psychological pit to the most beautiful expression of freedom and well-being, which is in essence love – the emanation of a higher frequency? Don’t give up, fight on! Tomorrow comes the song!’

 

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The Importance of Honoring

It is very important to know how to honour: others and yourself. But the question is: “In What Order?” And our parents and teachers taught us that we should honour others, firstly. But that is wrong! The first duty to honour somebody comes in the form of honoring our own beings! That is imperative! It all starts from within, and then it is expanded into the exterior – love, respect, and appreciation. When you begin with yourself, then you have a strong foundation for constructing your respect for others.
 
I had to learn the hard way that love should start with self-love. And this does not represent an obsession, or selfishness, but an acknowledgment of my own soul and my own needs. Only by loving myself, I can love others in a balanced way. And only by loving others, I can stay healthy in my self-love. So this mutual aspect is the key to stability and development. In loving yourself – you are truly manifesting unconditional love, because you are the same in relation to all beings. And in loving others – you escape the craziness of narcissism.
 
For me, the lesson was to honour my own being, to put me first-place, and that was the way of balancing my own being, and of reaching wholeness. What about you? What was your lesson?

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Day 30: Meditation

Motto: “If I knew that this would be the last time that I would hear your voice, I would record each of your words, so that I listen to them again and again, for eternity.” (Gabriel Garcia Marquez)

“To love is not exclusivity. To love is a matter of life and death. When you love someone, the rest of the world simply ceases to exist. Love unites and isolates. It connects you with the person that you choose, but it isolates you from the entire universe; it separates you from others, so that you might be able to reconstruct the first couple. Just the two of you, you and him, you and her…”

“…”

“Love involves a phenomenal dose of suffering, agony and ecstasy, just as all paradoxes were coagulated in it. Serving the same insane and insatiable desire that absorbs you and crumbles you inside: the desire to be one, a single being.”

“…”

“Desire and fullness. The act of missing someone. ‘Only you complete me! Only you!’ Only two words, my love and inside of my soul occurs a queer phenomenon, half tremble, half piercing happiness. Only you and the words transform themselves into something like the ants of Salvador Dali, devouring the hand of my death.”

“…”

“My love, rise from the palm of my soul and deliver me from all fears; save me from all nightmares! I never thought that you can crave so bitterly after someone’s arms. Why didn’t you take me in your arms? You do not know what pain you would have comforted. I would have given a lifetime for a moment in your arms, at your chest…”

 

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Powerful Intentions

Intentions are seeds. And we are responsible for what we plant in the soil of our minds and souls. Be careful what you desire, as even such a simple thing as a thought will bear fruit in your life – and you will have to face the aftermath of that energy. Actions are intimately correlated with your emotions and mental pictures. Are these healthy? Society taught us that rationality is the King of our being, but in essence the heart rules. The heart, represented not as an organ, but as an energetic point, a powerful creative vortex, a portal between worlds. Ration and action just follow a deeper calling – that of your core’s imprint, your flux of energy – or intent.

If your heart-centre is wicked and spoiled, just like a rotten apple, do not expect positive results, no matter how determined and dedicated you might be! Your Higher-Self will evaluate that, and ‘seeing’ that you are not in alignment with your higher purpose will allow drama to happen, as pain and trauma are factors that can initiate or lead to an inner awakening.

It is a higher form of love. The universe is teaching you to be kind and just. You are strongly advised not to mingle with ‘the fallen’, lower energies, but to soar high, with the eagles, the gurus, the warriors. The end of your life will be a coronation of your existence: a bouquet of former intentions, feelings, and actions. Therefore, you rule your destiny, and kneel down death, through the power of your eternal soul. There will be no judge, waiting to punish you, at your perish-bed. Your own consciousness will show you, once more, what you could have been, if you would have followed your inner light.

So, prepare, now, to be accountable, not to an exterior entity, but to your old, all-knowing-soul. Did you fight the good fight? Did you achieve your mission? If yes, I rejoice about your fulfilment. If not, I advise you to chase after your Divine Purpose. Before the-night-without-return comes.