Awakening to Fire

Conversations with the Higher Self (2)

‘I was thinking about the fact that I will never be able to forgive my twin. I perceive this clear, profound and precise voice, inside of me.

Until you will be ready to forgive your twin, you will not be able to forgive yourself!

“What do you mean? I don’t understand anything! Elaborate, please!”

What I mean is that you also need forgiveness, and until you are not ready to forgive another human being, you did not understand anything, and you will never be able to forgive yourself, you will never be able to find healing!

“How can I forgive others? How can I forgive myself? It is hard!”

You must understand that if they have hurt you, it doesn’t mean that they do not love you! They just functioned at the capacity that they have had at that moment! By judging them, you cut them from being; you allow them <<not to grow>>, and what you must comprehend is that the Source Itself wants you to receive love at the level that the Source is loved, so that you’ll be ready to understand the Source. You also need to transform your humanity, you need to grow. If you judge somebody, you cut them from being, and you doom them; you allow them not to grow;  you kill them;  you kill their becoming and most important, you do not remain in love. You separate yourself from The Source. You have to give up all judgment, and you have to spread love.

“I start to understand but many people commit so many errors, and if you do not apply judgment, they will believe that whatever they do, it is a good act; they will confound evil and good!”

Evil and good do not exist. There are only some moral precepts specific to certain levels of development.

“Then, how should I know what to do if there is no absolute moral behaviour?”

Growth has nothing to do with a certain moral conduct. Moral conduct imitates love. People need it, because they don’t love. If they would love, they would not need a set of rules to guide them. The more you abide in form, the less you experience and manifest love!

“That sounds sinful! Like an encouragement to sin. To break all rules. God would not say that! If You are God, you gave us the rules, now You come to us and tell us that rules are not good. How is that?”

If I gave the rules, then I have all the right to change them, but if man gave them, they are no good anyhow!

“What’s your idea? What do you want to bring new into this world?”

I want to shake once more the world and its foundations. To awaken everybody to their true identity. To make them experience the truth!

“What is The Truth?”

That they are never separated from The Source.

“If they are never separated from The Source, then why is there so much pain in the world? What kind of Source are you?”

The Source is never pain in the way people think. God is not responsible for everything that you experience, because you are a co-creator of your own reality! You must assume responsibility!

“Then you are not The Absolute!”

The Source is not a tyrant; you have to wake up! To give up all these stories of an angry god that punishes everybody! These ideas were created by man and, they come from fear and self-judgment! God doesn’t judge anybody! Everybody chooses their own path and everything happens for spiritual development! You must comprehend that by judging your twin, (we have begun from this point!), you are asleep; you are not awake!

“If I know You, then I am awake!”

Awakening is not a moment in time; it is not a revelation, but a state of being! You are awakened when you are in alignment with The Ultimate Truth, that is, being One with The Source! You are growing in awakening, if that makes sense to your mind!

“I am trying to understand!”

Try not to judge! Anybody! Each person has a unique path! You must follow your own; you must grow at your pace rate; you must find happiness now!”

“You’ve killed me with this now. I have nothing now! How can I be happy now?”

Happiness is not having. It is maintaining your clear mind. It is the peace of mind. Your peace of mind creates your external happiness, not the other way around!

“You’ve lost me here! What should I do now?”

Learn to maintain the peace of mind! Stop aggressing yourself with words and actions! Ask yourself where the place that you are not in alignment with yourself is! Stop judging! Meditate! Create joy! Be peaceful!”

“Be free! Be limitless!


How to ‘Desire’ – ‘without Pain’

Motto: “Love is happy when is able to give something. The ego is happy when is able to take.” [Osho]

Gautama Buddha said that there is a deep correlation between desiring something and being in pain. And if we meditate profoundly upon this matter, he is somewhat right. The peace of mind goes straight out the window once you start to feel love for someone, or better said, once you fall in love. The inner tranquility dissipates once you start deeply craving for something. It is so because only when you begin to want something or someone, you actually get to perceive the inner void caused by that lack, or absence.

So, what is the solution? Not desiring anything? But that is a paradox – impossibility. In this world, as long as you live, you will have feelings and desires. How about practicing non-attachment? This, also, seems like a misunderstood concept, if not like an entirely false one. It is absurd to say that you love something, and that you are not connected to it. What Buddha really meant is to desire with love. That is non-attachment: practicing every wish with love.

Let us think about falling in love. It is an amazing feeling, but why does it have to hurt – every-single-time? Love does not hurt – loving with conditions, expectations, oppression, and control brings pain into this complicated equation. If you renounce fear (all these conditions are fear-based!), then you can be pure-love, or you can simply love the other for the sake of the other. This sort of love does not hurt. Why not? Because you take responsibility for your own life; you give love to yourself, first; so, you do not offer love from a point of neediness, but from a place of power and beauty. This represents the main idea of Osho, in the following statement: “If you love a flower, don’t pick it up, because if you pick it up, it dies, and it ceases to be what you love. So, if you love a flower, let it be. Love is not about possession. Love is about appreciation.”

Or, how another great person put it: “You say that you love lobster. But what does that mean? It means you want to eat the lobster. So, if your love creates destruction, what sort of love is that? You don’t love the lobster. You love yourself.’ Good point. We have to reassess, and understand that love with expectations, or love with pain – is lobster-love. True-love means simply giving for the sake of giving. It does not require something in return.

But there is a dangerous idea in this statement, also! If you love someone unconditionally, and you take care of them unconditionally, and you do not do the same with your own being – that is not love, but dysfunction. You need to have the same attitude towards all, not only towards a ‘select-few’. You give love, because you are love, and that should reflect in every area of your life. You are love in relation to yourself, also, not only in relation to others. Living without pain is living with love. And that love must be all-encompassing, reaching everything and everyone, just like the sun.

You can apply the true-love only if you are inwardly balanced. If you are not in equilibrium, you will not be able to maintain this, as you are not that high energy. Love is energy, before anything else. Love is intent, before action. Love is perspective. If you have a wrong perspective about yourself, you will have a distorted view of everything. So, the first step to practicing real-love is fixing the relationship you have with yourself: loving yourself so much that you no longer feel the need to impose conditions on others. You no longer need to control and suffocate the object-of-your-love.

Can we live and desire without pain? Yes. Only by living with love. And the first human being you need to love is yourself! Then, you can take that and expand it, for the entire humanity. That is why sacrificing, in a soul-connection, does not function. You want to create and manifest a beautiful, balanced interaction – out of fear and self-hatred!

-Can you desire – without pain?