Facing the Shadow-Self

To know yourself is to face your own shadows and light, and to go beyond the labeling aspect of existence, in the essence of your identity – what you choose in the now moment. It is as simple as this. You are more than a perception of what is considered to be moral, or immoral; you are more than an isolated act that you have committed; you are more than even your self-past-construction, or your social mask. No human being is completely bad, or – completely good. We all have things we struggle with, and we all have made mistakes. Still, what defines us is our level of consciousness, and what we choose to become, not a certain moral pattern.

It is important to respect the rules of the culture we live in; anarchy is not the solution. But, we also have to grasp the fact that we are not defined by society’s desires, or expectations, but by our own level of awareness which is always connected to the divine. The greatest judge is hiding inside of you! The greatest reward is abiding inside of your own being! As you are a human being that has also a spiritual dimension, you have the capacity to feel, intuitively, what is wrong, and what is right. If society teaches you something that your consciousness says is wrong, then you should listen to your consciousness.

In the past, people did a lot of awful things that were legal, at that time. Slavery is one of them; so just the fact that society approves of something does not guarantee that it is moral, also. What is the solution, then? Should we live outside this world? No. The key is to balance the tendency to adapt to society with the tendency to remain one’s self. We must keep our originality, while living among other humans. We must keep lit our own inner light! We must try to be happy, while elevating others!

In this context, facing your shadow-self is extremely important, as it leads to self-healing, and that guides you towards inner balance. And if you have attained that you can function properly in an insecure world; you have the basis of a healthy life! But what does it mean to face your shadows? It means to be honest in relation to your current state of being. It means acknowledging your flaws and faults. It means accepting your wounds and needs. It means taking action-steps towards your healing. Accepting your shadow does not mean making a cult for either your positive side or for your negative side. It means seeing yourself as a whole, and balancing your opposing tendencies for the greatest good of your own being and of others. What will be the result of these strenuous efforts? A happier ‘you’.

Being spiritual is a part of this journey of self-healing; having a ‘soul-mate’, or a ‘twin-flame’ is an opportunity of change and growth. Most believe that it is about being romantically involved with their significant other; but, ultimately, it is not. You may never have a human relationship with a person with which you have a soul-connection, because that is not its main purpose. The essential is the mirroring aspect involved by that connection, as only by seeing who you truly are, at your core, you can truly heal. The essential is your becoming. The essential is your own awakening. These are the pillars on which you will build your existence.

Your beloved may never want to face his or her true self. Does that mean that you also have to remain in that state? No! If you consider yourself to be awake, (not ‘more awake’, more ‘awakened’, and so on!), then you must know that even if the entire world goes on the wrong path, you must still walk on the right one. Even if all forgot that they have a divine purpose, you cannot forget it! Even if nobody teaches the truth, and nobody guides others towards the true self-mastery, (which is never about the other’s actions!), still you have to do it, if you are AWAKENED!

So, what is the conclusion? Instead of chasing around false expectations, you should have the guts to accept what the Mirror is reflecting back unto you. An expanded consciousness knows that this spiritual journey is not about labeling, nor about anything from the exterior, but about what you have always been – your true identity: love, wisdom, and power! Stop playing dead! Step into your power!

Awakening to Fire

When you realize that you live for God, not for a human being, then you are free! You understand that you have lost nothing, as long as you did not lose God. Day by day, work for your “resurrection”. There are thousands of ways to recover, the first is always forgiveness. What they have done to you might seem unforgivable, but you must affirm out loud that you forgive them, although they do not deserve it and then, say also that you forgive yourself, although you do not deserve it either. The second step is to live in the now moment. Embrace everything that is happening to you. Receive and give happiness and love other human beings. If you cannot practice unconditional love with your twin, practice it with other human beings! It is never in vain!

Another important thing: do not get trapped by self-pity. They have left me because I am not beautiful enough, smart enough, because I am not educated, like them, because I have children, because, because, because! No. Your twin has run away from you because of himself/herself. Your twin has rejected you because of himself/herself. You have put the mirror in front of them and they are so scared of their own “ugliness” that they run or reject or both! Remember what they have told you, every single painful word and know that they actually have said that to themselves. In your presence, they are exposed, they become vulnerable. You are their greatest “nightmare”!

Make plans. It is very important to keep your mind focused on future plans of joy and fulfillment. It can be anything. Buy a new house, visit a special place, raise a child. Anything. You have to have a sense of control and dignity, a sense of purpose. Without these things you will become a wreck, emotionally and you cannot let what has happened to you cripple you! Always believe in yourself and in your purpose. Soon, you will be out of the pit, celebrating the victory! Your pain will be vanished, your scars – nonexistent. You will have only you from your past experience, that is all that you will take with you. A powerful, forgiving, loving You. A you like God.

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Awakening to Fire

“I have started to feel a deep, deep love inside of me, that is for me, for all humanity and for my twin included. It is as if all bitterness fell off, and along with it, the death of lies and conditions, all negativity went away. I had to experience this! I had to experience the darkest of the darkest nights of the soul, in order to realize that all my fears were just an illusion.
The fear that everything that I love will be taken away from me and that I will be devastated, the fear of rejection and abandonment, the fear of pain itself. The fear of being lied to and ridiculed, taunted and despised, cheated upon, hurt, broken and utterly alone. They all happened to me and I did not die, I did not lose my mind, I did not commit suicide. I am still here, working on myself, fighting for my dreams. I was not wrong. My twin was not wrong. We both went separate ways because we both needed different experiences in order to grow.”
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The Queen – or the Goddess?

Once upon a time, in a faraway kingdom, lived a beautiful, wise Queen and a strong, just King. They were famous for their powerful love-connection. They would not do anything without the other, and the world was astonished at them, as nothing had managed to separate them, or to make them doubt each other. Their love was an example, and it would illumine the whole sky. When they were side by side, praying, or solving quarrels, people could see a great aura of light being emanated from their chest. It was a sign that they were divine. Everybody knew that, but nobody had the courage to utter it out loud.

In that abundant and peaceful kingdom, there was a prominent witch, living alone in the creepy, shadowy forests. Nobody really knew anything specific about her, but it was said that she sometimes appeared unto certain people, and that they would never be the same afterwards. One day, the King received a special request from one of his subjects: an old lady asked permission for a private meeting. That was very unusual, as before, the Kind would judge the cases with his Queen. Nobody actually believed that the King was going to accept the request, but he did.

The Queen’s face became dark, for the first time, and the flame in her heart started to quickly diminish. She felt very weak, and a vague sensation of doubt crawled inside o her heart, like a cold-blooded snake alluring her, and biting her. Still, while the King was in the meeting with that mysterious woman, the Queen admonished herself for her venomous suspicion, and she asked heaven for forgiveness. So, her inner light was restored, and she felt again peaceful and confident. Her husband was a man to trust, for sure!

When the King exited the meeting room, his face was dim, his eyes – teary, and around his heart area, where once was only a bright light, a sort of magical rust was now visible. All his subjects were appalled at the sight of this, and rumours emerged, and the Queen found out about them, before the King got to meet her. The Queen was a bit scared, but she decided, inwardly, that she will maintain the faith in her husband. After a while, the King came into the Queen’s chambers, and he kissed her on her sweet, red lips, but something had changed in him, and the beautiful Queen knew.

He did not give any explanations, and she did not ask – as she did not want to trouble him, or pain him. Days passed, and a cold emotional distance installed between the King and the Queen. The King became gloomy and reserved, and he commenced to avoid the Queen and her presence. The Queen would hide in her rooms, because she did not want to give people the opportunity to gossip, but the kingdom was roaring about these sad events!

The inflaming sun went to sleep, and woke up again, and this cycle was repeated many times. The King, now, was not spreading light around him, and his heart was completely rusted. He became thin and pale, although he wanted to appear as strong as before. He became disinterested in the state affairs, and he would spend a lot of time into the woods, hunting. People were saying that the evil witch had put a spell on him, and that she had charmed him, so that he would forget the Queen. But the queer thing was that the more he ignored the Queen, the sicker he would look. A scary rumour spread in the palace that determined the Queen to wake up from her lethargy. They said that the King is going to die soon.

The Queen was in a great dilemma. What should a woman do in this case? She knew that she had to do something, but she did not know what. When a woman is forgotten by her man, she cannot do anything. A woman who loves her man – also respects his decisions. But this was more than a sentimental thing. People needed their King. The kingdom was falling apart, rapidly. Famine had spread all over the land! What could she do, as a Queen? Nothing, again! She could not dethrone the King, because she loved him.

The Queen went to sleep, and on a full-moon night, she had an amazing dream. In her reverie, she was in the woods, all by herself, and she saw a woman coming towards her. First, she got scared, but then, her inner voice told her to stand still. When the strange woman approached, the Queen observed that her eyes were glowing like flames. The old woman, who was in fact the ancient witch, took the Queen’s hand into her own, and told her, in a very soft and comforting tone: “You are not only a woman, or a queen, you are also a goddess. What would a goddess do?”

The Queen woke up with renewed strength. She now knew what to do: she needed to go into the woods, and look up for that old woman. A woman cannot do much; a queen – the same. But a goddess can do everything – everything she wants! And she desired so much to heal her King, and to restore order in the kingdom!

She did not tell anyone about her plan, and she just left the palace, and entered the thick, scary woods. She expected to meet the outstanding witch, but she did not. Tired by walking, she got near a calm lake, and just sat down. She approached and drank some water that was so clear and refreshing that she thought she had found the rivers of life. When she was preparing to leave, she saw in the water the image of the old lady, but her heart was open wide, bleeding. She got scared and ran back to the palace.

She tried to understand what she saw in the mirror of the lake, but she could not think of any satisfactory answer. What does the image of the old woman with the heart open-wide mean? After three weeks, she had an amazing insight. The old lady signified her own existence. She was the old woman, with the bleeding open-heart. But why was her heart bleeding?

She already knew the answer: yes, hear heart was bleeding. And the King was not the reason, but she was – her own hidden fears. She had wondered, so many times, is she is fit to be a queen; if, one day, the King will meet another woman, more beautiful than her, and fell in love. For many years, she had secretly tortured herself with these black thoughts, but she always managed to bury them deep down, in her heart. And, now, she had to face them – that was the only way to stop the curse that had fallen upon them!

She started praying and meditating. After a while, she understood that this curse is about her own being, and not about the King, or the kingdom. She understood that she feared getting old, and that she had no control over others. One day, yes, another woman could show up – more beautiful than her, younger; and, yes, one day, the King could forget her. She was not able to manipulate the King’s heart, or any other human’s heart. She had no power in regards to how others might react, or on how they might behave, or what they might choose. She acknowledged that one day she may not be a Queen, anymore. She grasped that she could lose her man, as a still in love woman. But what she would never lose was her status as a goddess. That was the secret: she could lose everything, but not her identity as a goddess. That was her strength.

She comprehended that we can love people, but we cannot substitute ourselves to their destiny. All we can do is to abide in our own strength, and to acknowledge who we are, at our core, and to do what we can do. Life is not about saving others, but about saving ourselves. Life is not about saving others, but about loving others, and about empowering them. We have to do us; they have to do them. So, the Queen decided to do the best she could do. She started to receive poor people into her own chambers, and she started to advise them, on their problems. She was not a Queen who could decide upon what happens to people, but she was a Goddess, so she could give guidance and comfort. She could spread her own light into the hearts of those lost and frightened men and women – and that was enough! She could not play the King’s role, but she did not have to do it, either. All she had to do is being a Goddess!

Things were not easy, but they slowly started to change. People were more secure, and instead of being bitter, or resenting and judging the King for his weakness, they began to express gratitude for their amazing Goddess, and for their own inner light. So the kingdom started to change from a dull place into a blessed, joyous place.

Even the King seemed to have come back alive, lately. One day, while the Queen was in her chambers, with her subjects, something incredible happened: the door suddenly opened, and the King entered, totally renewed. His countenance was shiny and friendly. He sat near his Queen, and he did not intervene, but at the end of the meeting, he only told his subjects that he did not marry a queen, or a woman, but a Goddess.

His people went away happy. Their Queen and their King were again one. The Queen was amazed: she thanked the King, and kept on doing her own duties. The King healed of his heart-wound, and he also started to do his job, properly: he received people, and took care of his own business. After three months had passed, the King came into his Queen’s chambers, at night, embraced her, kissed her, like he used to do in his youth, and told her this secret: “When I had that meeting, on that awful day, an old woman came to me, and she asked for nothing, but put a crystal-clear mirror in front of my eyes. What I saw in that mirror scared me to death! An old, ugly, and powerless man was gazing at me, from the enclosed, magical mirror. First, I did not comprehend, but later it all became clear to me: that old, useless man was me! I was always afraid of getting old, and that you would not love me anymore. As soon as I have confronted those secret fears, I felt my heart grow old, my flesh rotten, and that ugly rust started to appear around my heart. I got very weak, and I felt like running away from you, so that you would not see my dark parts. That led to further estrangement, and I was so pained, knowing that I’m losing you, but I couldn’t help it! That day you left into the woods I thought that my worst nightmare has come to pass! I thought that you have abandoned me! In those sorrowful moments, I’ve asked myself: “What am I going to do without my Queen?” The despair was immense, but, I don’t know why, all of a sudden, I’ve felt empowered, and this queer thought occurred to me: “I am a more than a king, or a man; I am a God!” You know, when I was young, I met a young lady near a lake, far away, in the woods. She told me that I was a god! So, I have started to trust that, and just do the little that I could. The God in me did not let me perish. And, then, you came back, totally transformed. And you gave me strength. So, I had the courage to come near you, and love you again. Could you ever forgive me for the way I behaved?”

The Queen smiled, through tears. She kissed the King, and forgave him. And they live happily ever after. People say that they still show up, occasionally, unto young couples, and teach them what true love is: not neediness, but standing into your own power; being a god, and a goddess! We all have this offer, today. But it is not easy. Being a god, or a goddess, implies a great responsibility. It is being courageous enough not to blame others for your situation. It is doing your mission, with the resources you have. Your human, social role may change, in time. One day, you may be the Queen, or the King, and next day, you may lose that. But there is something that you will never lose: your identity as a god; your identity as a goddess! Who are you, dear woman: the queen, or the goddess? Who are you, dear man: the king, or the god?

Awakening to Fire

“What this connection has accomplished for me is to magnify my wounds, and that is the first step towards self-healing. Do not put any limitations on it! Do not say that you cannot live without your twin, do not say that you cannot live with your twin. Embrace the moment, because it is part of the universal plan. Resisting the present moment will not bring you with your twin; you are not bringing them back by stopping yourself from living; there are lessons to learn along the way and the sooner you learn them, your chances to be with your twin increase! Do not be disengaged with life because you are in pain! If you are still in pain, you are long away from being with your twin. You must find your inner peace, your wholeness, and your happiness. This is the road and there is no other! This is my lesson; this is what I want to teach you! Take what you see fit, reject what you do not resonate with! There is no ultimate truth, because we are all different, and we have different paths, but we can support one another!”

N.B. If you are interested in my romance novel, ‘Awakening to Fire’, you can order it by accessing the following link:

Awakening to Fire


Awakening to Fire

A daily quote from my Romance Novel, Awakening to Fire:

“I did not understand everything yet, but what I comprehended is that the twin-flame connection is not outside of yourself and the union does not happen outside. The twin-flame is just another state of consciousness, of enlightenment and in order to take it in and to manifest it outside of yourself, you must go on a personal journey, that has nothing to do with the historical, 3D experience of the presence of your significant other. You must go through the journey and you must get to the other side illuminated, purified. You go from the depths of darkness into the light; you ascend, for all humanity.

Do not believe that if your divine counterpart is not with you in the physical, then you are dead or insignificant or lost or doomed. You are a divine fire in a human form and there is nothing human that can stop you from reaching where you must get. Love yourself deeply. Stop the pain, stop the drama and live! I can let it go now. I can let go of my past, so that I might embrace my becoming. You have to make peace inside of yourself and you have to honour yourself. If you do not do that, nobody will do it for you!”

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Awakening to Fire

The Power of Self-Love

Culture has a great impact on our way of thinking, acting, and feeling. From a very young age, I was taught that Princesses are loved by Princes, and that you have to be a Princess, in order to be loved by a Prince-Charming. The trouble was that I never actually felt like a Princess. I did not consider myself to be too beautiful; I was not that feminine; I did not like dresses, nor makeup. I had other interests than just adorning myself, and exposing myself to the eye of the potential male-watcher. Reading, for example, was a better time-passing activity, a more meaningful one.

But, later on, I got hurt, inside, not by others, but by myself. I felt the need to be a lovely young lady, as, in my mind, that was the only way to obtain love. By comparing myself with that illusory pattern, I got to think that something is wrong with me. Why can I not be like them? Why am I so different? And I cried, inwardly, thousands of tears.

That pain produced a clarity that the superficial Princesses do not possess. I understood that the cliche is false, and, more than that, that it is dysfunctional. We are unique, and we deserve to be loved for whom we are – for nothing else. We do not become worthy of love – we are worthy, all the time. In our imperfect moments, even, we are the most cute, as we show, genuinely, whom we re, at our core. Vulnerability and honesty equate with sexiness. Intelligence is hotness. Education and common sense, compassion, dedication, loyalty – these things make you appealing for the Real Man – the one who knows what is valuable in a life full of Masks.

I no longer suffer because I am not Cinderella. I no longer identify myself with the tale. In the real story, I am the main character, and the person who must love me the most is – myself! From this point of balance, I can give love, and receive love, in a healthy way! ‘We are bringing sexy back’ – through our heart-opening, our sensitivity, our intuition, our character, and our intelligence. Dear Reader, you are beautiful, just the way you are! Do not allow people to bring you down! Create your own story! And, please, remember, we do not obtain love, we are Love!

What Is Awakening?

11:11 – again! I have been observing these repetitive number-patterns, for quite a long time, now! It all started when my spiritual awakening accelerated! People do not know much about what spiritual awakening represents. They are scared of the concept, thinking that it is a sort of New Age thing, being part of a cult’s dogma, or something similar to this! But there is nothing else more false than that perception!
Everybody goes through an awakening, at a certain point, in life. When you abandon the old you, and you either discover, or recreate a new you, then you undergo symbolical death and resurrection, namely you go through a process of awakening! Awakening constitutes the act of peeling off all the dysfunctional layers of your being, and going to the next level of consciousness. Healing your wounds and integrating the unconscious parts of yourself, becoming whole – imply an inner awakening.
But what is the vehicle of awakening? Most often, one awakens through pain, or distress, at some existential level. If you analyse all great historic personalities, you will understand that they all had to face colossal challenges. Is that aspect only a coincidence? I do not think so! The fragile seed of greatness must, first, be buried, in total darkness, in order for it to sprout, later on!
Additionally, love triggers change, also, as it activates one’s emotions, and those intense feelings influence everything, including the ability to create. The heart center is more than the area of an organ’s physical presence, in the body. It is a major creative tool – that is why so many artists, or even scientists, have greatly influenced humanity. They acted from their intuition, and they have chiseled those deeds by means of good information, and by further experimenting, testing the value of their theories.
What is the purpose of awakening, though? Having access to a higher level of consciousness, becoming the greatest version of yourself, and, of course, uplifting humanity. You do not awaken only for yourself. You awaken for the entire mankind, and you have the responsibility to help other’s ascension.
-Did you awaken, yet?
-I am just following the steps of those who walked before me, in desiring to find out my true identity, in allowing change to happen, and in letting my heart open-wide.

The River of Fluid-Gold

From the birth of this Light-Eon,

we have been bathing

in the same


Our feet were refreshed

and our souls – nurtured.

I wonder what it truly is:


But what does human love represent?

A bunch of chaotic feelings

and acute, painful cravings.

That is not our soul’s brand!

We go deeper than that!

The golden-river


our soul-looking-for-nothing.

-Nothing is needed


those clear Waters,

as we are EVERYTHING!

-We are the Fluid-Golden-River:

The point of complete silence –

perfect peace!

An elevated state of consciousness

that defeats mortality!

‘Awakening to Fire’

“They are interested in money, in pleasure, in vice, in being mean and they forget who they were, before coming here, on this earth. Love is the death of the ego and ego is the death of love. Love is not a human, rational-based experience, love is transcendent, like a stream of electricity reflected through a bulb of glass. The bulb glass is the ego. If the glass is dirty, the perception of the light changes itself, because the bulb’s colour limits the manifestation of the light. So it is with love. The best we can do as non-human based entities, having a human experience, is to shed the bulb.”

N.B. If you are interested in my romance novel, ‘Awakening to Fire’, you can order it by accessing the following link:

Awakening to Fire