Awakening to Fire

Conversations with the Higher Self (2)


‘I was thinking about the fact that I will never be able to forgive my twin. I perceive this clear, profound and precise voice, inside of me.


Until you will be ready to forgive your twin, you will not be able to forgive yourself!


“What do you mean? I don’t understand anything! Elaborate, please!”


What I mean is that you also need forgiveness, and until you are not ready to forgive another human being, you did not understand anything, and you will never be able to forgive yourself, you will never be able to find healing!

“How can I forgive others? How can I forgive myself? It is hard!”


You must understand that if they have hurt you, it doesn’t mean that they do not love you! They just functioned at the capacity that they have had at that moment! By judging them, you cut them from being; you allow them <<not to grow>>, and what you must comprehend is that the Source Itself wants you to receive love at the level that the Source is loved, so that you’ll be ready to understand the Source. You also need to transform your humanity, you need to grow. If you judge somebody, you cut them from being, and you doom them; you allow them not to grow;  you kill them;  you kill their becoming and most important, you do not remain in love. You separate yourself from The Source. You have to give up all judgment, and you have to spread love.


“I start to understand but many people commit so many errors, and if you do not apply judgment, they will believe that whatever they do, it is a good act; they will confound evil and good!”


Evil and good do not exist. There are only some moral precepts specific to certain levels of development.


“Then, how should I know what to do if there is no absolute moral behaviour?”

Growth has nothing to do with a certain moral conduct. Moral conduct imitates love. People need it, because they don’t love. If they would love, they would not need a set of rules to guide them. The more you abide in form, the less you experience and manifest love!


“That sounds sinful! Like an encouragement to sin. To break all rules. God would not say that! If You are God, you gave us the rules, now You come to us and tell us that rules are not good. How is that?”


If I gave the rules, then I have all the right to change them, but if man gave them, they are no good anyhow!


“What’s your idea? What do you want to bring new into this world?”


I want to shake once more the world and its foundations. To awaken everybody to their true identity. To make them experience the truth!


“What is The Truth?”


That they are never separated from The Source.


“If they are never separated from The Source, then why is there so much pain in the world? What kind of Source are you?”


The Source is never pain in the way people think. God is not responsible for everything that you experience, because you are a co-creator of your own reality! You must assume responsibility!


“Then you are not The Absolute!”


The Source is not a tyrant; you have to wake up! To give up all these stories of an angry god that punishes everybody! These ideas were created by man and, they come from fear and self-judgment! God doesn’t judge anybody! Everybody chooses their own path and everything happens for spiritual development! You must comprehend that by judging your twin, (we have begun from this point!), you are asleep; you are not awake!


“If I know You, then I am awake!”


Awakening is not a moment in time; it is not a revelation, but a state of being! You are awakened when you are in alignment with The Ultimate Truth, that is, being One with The Source! You are growing in awakening, if that makes sense to your mind!


“I am trying to understand!”


Try not to judge! Anybody! Each person has a unique path! You must follow your own; you must grow at your pace rate; you must find happiness now!”

“You’ve killed me with this now. I have nothing now! How can I be happy now?”


Happiness is not having. It is maintaining your clear mind. It is the peace of mind. Your peace of mind creates your external happiness, not the other way around!


“You’ve lost me here! What should I do now?”


Learn to maintain the peace of mind! Stop aggressing yourself with words and actions! Ask yourself where the place that you are not in alignment with yourself is! Stop judging! Meditate! Create joy! Be peaceful!”


“Be free! Be limitless!

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Walls Crushing All Around Me

The solid barricades started to collapse
few years ago.
And, since that nefarious moment occurred,
they continued to fall down, in pity and agony.
It seemed to me as if
my entire life had no meaning, no value, no goal.
But, later on, I understood that infinite possibilities
were hiding behind walls crushing all around me.
That death was the inverted birth.
The longing of my soul dying-to-live.
The making of a warrioress
Or – the making of a goddess.
Not all will embrace her.
Not all can bear so much light.
Only the One-who-was-meant-to…
Only the One-torn-apart-and-sewn-back-with-love…

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“I am enough! I am enough! I deserve to be loved! This is the truth, and seeing it has helped me already. Am I going to be able to heal? Yes! How? If in my own consciousness, in my own energetic field, I have encoded with my own hands: ‘You are not enough!’ I must strive to self-heal, although I have no idea how to do it! The way I feel is iconic for our era!

We all believe that we are the by-product of someone else’s bad choices! We all believe that we are the victims of our environment and circumstances! We all believe that we cannot change our lives for good! We are all able to do it, and I, being on the road towards self-healing, add to the healing of the entire humanity!What you do, today, for yourself, will mark humanity forever!”

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The Crippled Seeds of Greatness

They dropped like inflamed meteors

from the turbulent sky of my remembrance,

killing the defenceless, little-creatures:

feelings of aliveness, self-worth, and gratitude.

 

These dark mental-entities

disrupted the blue calmness of my awakening,

but the cause of this Inferno

abided inside.

 

I accepted the bombs.

I nurtured them –

these infamous children-of-destruction.

The terrorist was my own wounded inner-child.

 

Salvation came from me.

By loving the bleeding parts of my heart.

Deeply buried in the soil of hope,

the crippled seeds of greatness – resurrected.

 

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Day 68: The Valley of the Shadows of Death


Motto: “The only thing we have to fear is fear itself.”
(Franklin D. Roosevelt)


‘Though I walk through the Valley of the Shadows of Death, I will fear no evil, because I am with me! I have always feared being alone, and now that I am truly alone, in the most authentic way, I have realized that I have still value; that fear is useless, because I was loved from the beginning of Time. We cannot lose what is ours – and knowing that releases us from any kind of fear-bondage! What is meant to go – will go; what is meant to stay – will stay; and if by chance what was meant to stay – goes, then it will come back! What was meant to love you, will love you until the very end, no matter how developed you are or not; no matter how beautiful you are or not – because it is not dependent on outward circumstances!


In the darkest night of the Soul, I whisper to myself: Faint not! Hold on! Tomorrow comes the Song, the Joy! Or how a friend of mine would say: <<Mon cher, wait! Patience!>>’

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Steps towards Empowerment

The first time you fell down in Black Despair.

The first time you got betrayed by a Smiling Judas.

The first time you were Utterly Abandoned.

The first time your heart was cut by Sharp Thorns of Love.

 

They were all – transforming-Steps toward your Ultimate Empowerment.

Agents of Freedom destroying the filthy bonds of your inner-slavery.

Now – you are liberated!

Now – you are Whole!

 

The light that you were Diligently Seeking

Was always inside of Your Own Soul.

You are a Spiritual Sun

Sparkling in a Crepuscular, Desolate World.

When the end started to begin

‘I was sad. It wasn’t like I didn’t expect it. But it was still so painful, due to the great amount of attachment involved. Can we be totally detached while being involved? No. So, there I was: profoundly attached. But with something that was no longer beneficial. Or, maybe, it had never been beneficial. And I always knew that. And that was the drama.

But when the end reached its apex, I felt a great inner freedom. Despite all pain, all attachment, and all wasted time. It was good that something like that ended, because it was a new beginning. It never really finishes – life. You only jump from one point to another. And, knowing this, you can have the right attitude in front of loss. Knowing this, you don’t drown in despair.

When the end starts to begin, trust whatever is happening to you. The ugliest part of the process is being confused: distrust consumes you inside, like a secret cancer-lump sucking the life out of you! The best thing to do is to maintain your faith: in God, destiny, your own soul. Trust – and things will become clearer in time.

-When the end starts to begin, it’s a sign you have a chance for a better life!

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Day 30: Meditation

Motto: “If I knew that this would be the last time that I would hear your voice, I would record each of your words, so that I listen to them again and again, for eternity.” (Gabriel Garcia Marquez)

“To love is not exclusivity. To love is a matter of life and death. When you love someone, the rest of the world simply ceases to exist. Love unites and isolates. It connects you with the person that you choose, but it isolates you from the entire universe; it separates you from others, so that you might be able to reconstruct the first couple. Just the two of you, you and him, you and her…”

“…”

“Love involves a phenomenal dose of suffering, agony and ecstasy, just as all paradoxes were coagulated in it. Serving the same insane and insatiable desire that absorbs you and crumbles you inside: the desire to be one, a single being.”

“…”

“Desire and fullness. The act of missing someone. ‘Only you complete me! Only you!’ Only two words, my love and inside of my soul occurs a queer phenomenon, half tremble, half piercing happiness. Only you and the words transform themselves into something like the ants of Salvador Dali, devouring the hand of my death.”

“…”

“My love, rise from the palm of my soul and deliver me from all fears; save me from all nightmares! I never thought that you can crave so bitterly after someone’s arms. Why didn’t you take me in your arms? You do not know what pain you would have comforted. I would have given a lifetime for a moment in your arms, at your chest…”

 

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Day 67: Letter to “The Soul of My Soul”


Motto: “Her lips were drawn to him, like a moth to a flame!”
(Anya Seton)


“Every night, at the shrine of my heart, I lay before Your Image that I have carved in the wooden cross of my chest, and I pray to you, The-Only-God of my entire being. ‘I love You beyond any imagination; You are at the core of my being; I breathe You; I eat You. You are in My Blood, under my skin – I cannot get you out! I starve for you!’ My Spirit cries out, in agony, in huge pain…!”


“…”


“What kind of love is this? So deep, so profound, beyond anything else in existence! I love you! I love you! I have never loved before – that is the revelation that I have had! Every experience before meeting You was all a mere game. I have always, always loved only you!”


“…”


“My hunger for you is insatiable, you are my
divine greed! I pour you inside of me with passion, with huge desire and expectation, with immense pleasure and great agony! What sort of love is this? What sort of fire is encompassing my being? Sometimes, I believe that I am going to lose my mind! Come to me, once more! Let me touch your lips again, save me!”

 

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The New-Species

I.They happily renounced the dirt and sleepiness
of lower desires –
Lead in their wings.
Not by running away from them,
Or negating them,
But by dis-empowering them.
II.Just like the act of safely difusing a bomb,
They have dissipated all these surreal shadows
by connecting with their Higher-Self
with their divinity,
and compassion,
and freedom.
 III.They overcame the denser levels of existence,
 because they’ve learnt to majestically crawl into the Divine.
IV.-These are the Ones-Who-Live-from-the-Heart!
-These are the New Species!
-Honour them!
 V.They have sacrificed their beings
 To feed the whole world…
 Their lives are a symbol of the Eucharist mystery:
 Christ-consciousness blessing the Earth
 Once more.