Forgiving is to Be Aware

We all suffered an injustice. Either if it was an exterior circumstance, like getting fired or betrayed by a friend or lover, or an inner wound, such as unrequited love, we all felt the burn of a soul-cut. We all blamed others. We all experienced the feelings of rage and bitterness. We all regretted the occurrence, the fact that we opened-up to those people, and we all wanted to go back in time to change our ‘stupid’ decisions.

But, just ponder, for a moment: did you gain something from that incident? Did you become stronger, wiser, more loving towards your own being? If yes, then, let regrets go! You have chosen, at a soul-level, to go through that, even if you cannot comprehend it with your human mind, because you needed to change. Even if they meant your harm, in 3D, they have, in fact, propelled you towards your true essence: that of a victor!

Forgiving is to be aware that your happiness happens through growth, and growth happens through people and difficult situations. There is no need to be upset – for too long… It would be just as a tragicomic scene, in which a kid is crying because he fell while learning to cycle. It might have been painful, but the fun came after that. It is the same, at a spiritual level. Forgive and forget! Keep only the lesson; let the rest go!

The secret of existence is not the absence of pain, but the transformation of everything. Metamorphosing the venom in medicine will make you what you were meant to be: a Master. Did you let go, or are you still holding unto the past?

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Day 33: The Psychological Pit

Motto: “Good night, good night! Parting is such sweet sorrow, that I shall say good night till it be morrow.” (William Shakespeare)

‘I have realized something. I was speaking with the person that I have recently met, let’s call him “My Friend”. I was speaking with My Friend about the healing process that I need to go through, and he said to me something amazing. He said, “The pit does not exist. We were never in the pit. We only believed we were!” It hit me, like lightning! We were never in the pit, because the pit does not exist. The pit is psychological. Everything that is happening to you right now, all the pain of the loss – is psychological. The pit does not exist, because it is something related to the past, first of all. The pit does not exist, because you exist, and if you exist, then hope still exists! You lost nothing essential, as long as you did not lose yourself. The pit exists only in your mind. You enforce it. You give it power to grow, and to entangle you, to destroy you! You destroy yourself, not your twin, no matter what they have chosen!

As long as you are in the pit, you are not able to see the truth. You are trapped in a weird psychological thread made of regrets, “love” (feelings), hate, despair, self-degrading gestures, and actions. Did your twin leave you? That’s their choice. What you do with your life is up to you. Nobody says that it does not hurt, but in order to heal, you must understand that you are responsible for your own life, for your own happiness; you decide how to live and whom you love, or whom to love no more… The pit is an image of the dark-self, full with fear, guilt, rejection, and desperation. As long as you maintain the psychological hell within you, you will create a world around you that will fit the frequency that you are emanating.

If there is one thing that you can do in the pit it is to love – everybody, unconditionally. It is what took me out of the pit. If you emanate love, then you will attract love, and by it you will break free of the ego-chain-projection. Love yourself and love others unconditionally – that is how you will get out of the pit. Enforce your spirit every day; because the mind is subject to the spirit, and no matter how deep might be the pain that you are feeling, your ego will follow your spirit, if you act not according to your ego, but to spirit. Spirit is love – the equation is so simple.

My loved ones, you must try not to hold any negative feelings against anybody, and if you are still struggling with it, then forget about it all – and just give love. Love represents the stairs from hell to heaven. From an inner, psychological pit to the most beautiful expression of freedom and well-being, which is in essence love – the emanation of a higher frequency? Don’t give up, fight on! Tomorrow comes the song!’


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The Importance of Honoring

It is very important to know how to honour: others and yourself. But the question is: “In What Order?” And our parents and teachers taught us that we should honour others, firstly. But that is wrong! The first duty to honour somebody comes in the form of honoring our own beings! That is imperative! It all starts from within, and then it is expanded into the exterior – love, respect, and appreciation. When you begin with yourself, then you have a strong foundation for constructing your respect for others.
I had to learn the hard way that love should start with self-love. And this does not represent an obsession, or selfishness, but an acknowledgment of my own soul and my own needs. Only by loving myself, I can love others in a balanced way. And only by loving others, I can stay healthy in my self-love. So this mutual aspect is the key to stability and development. In loving yourself – you are truly manifesting unconditional love, because you are the same in relation to all beings. And in loving others – you escape the craziness of narcissism.
For me, the lesson was to honour my own being, to put me first-place, and that was the way of balancing my own being, and of reaching wholeness. What about you? What was your lesson?

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Day 30: Meditation

Motto: “If I knew that this would be the last time that I would hear your voice, I would record each of your words, so that I listen to them again and again, for eternity.” (Gabriel Garcia Marquez)

“To love is not exclusivity. To love is a matter of life and death. When you love someone, the rest of the world simply ceases to exist. Love unites and isolates. It connects you with the person that you choose, but it isolates you from the entire universe; it separates you from others, so that you might be able to reconstruct the first couple. Just the two of you, you and him, you and her…”


“Love involves a phenomenal dose of suffering, agony and ecstasy, just as all paradoxes were coagulated in it. Serving the same insane and insatiable desire that absorbs you and crumbles you inside: the desire to be one, a single being.”


“Desire and fullness. The act of missing someone. ‘Only you complete me! Only you!’ Only two words, my love and inside of my soul occurs a queer phenomenon, half tremble, half piercing happiness. Only you and the words transform themselves into something like the ants of Salvador Dali, devouring the hand of my death.”


“My love, rise from the palm of my soul and deliver me from all fears; save me from all nightmares! I never thought that you can crave so bitterly after someone’s arms. Why didn’t you take me in your arms? You do not know what pain you would have comforted. I would have given a lifetime for a moment in your arms, at your chest…”


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Powerful Intentions

Intentions are seeds. And we are responsible for what we plant in the soil of our minds and souls. Be careful what you desire, as even such a simple thing as a thought will bear fruit in your life – and you will have to face the aftermath of that energy. Actions are intimately correlated with your emotions and mental pictures. Are these healthy? Society taught us that rationality is the King of our being, but in essence the heart rules. The heart, represented not as an organ, but as an energetic point, a powerful creative vortex, a portal between worlds. Ration and action just follow a deeper calling – that of your core’s imprint, your flux of energy – or intent.

If your heart-centre is wicked and spoiled, just like a rotten apple, do not expect positive results, no matter how determined and dedicated you might be! Your Higher-Self will evaluate that, and ‘seeing’ that you are not in alignment with your higher purpose will allow drama to happen, as pain and trauma are factors that can initiate or lead to an inner awakening.

It is a higher form of love. The universe is teaching you to be kind and just. You are strongly advised not to mingle with ‘the fallen’, lower energies, but to soar high, with the eagles, the gurus, the warriors. The end of your life will be a coronation of your existence: a bouquet of former intentions, feelings, and actions. Therefore, you rule your destiny, and kneel down death, through the power of your eternal soul. There will be no judge, waiting to punish you, at your perish-bed. Your own consciousness will show you, once more, what you could have been, if you would have followed your inner light.

So, prepare, now, to be accountable, not to an exterior entity, but to your old, all-knowing-soul. Did you fight the good fight? Did you achieve your mission? If yes, I rejoice about your fulfilment. If not, I advise you to chase after your Divine Purpose. Before the-night-without-return comes.

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Day 67: Letter to “The Soul of My Soul”

Motto: “Her lips were drawn to him, like a moth to a flame!”
(Anya Seton)

“Every night, at the shrine of my heart, I lay before Your Image that I have carved in the wooden cross of my chest, and I pray to you, The-Only-God of my entire being. ‘I love You beyond any imagination; You are at the core of my being; I breathe You; I eat You. You are in My Blood, under my skin – I cannot get you out! I starve for you!’ My Spirit cries out, in agony, in huge pain…!”


“What kind of love is this? So deep, so profound, beyond anything else in existence! I love you! I love you! I have never loved before – that is the revelation that I have had! Every experience before meeting You was all a mere game. I have always, always loved only you!”


“My hunger for you is insatiable, you are my
divine greed! I pour you inside of me with passion, with huge desire and expectation, with immense pleasure and great agony! What sort of love is this? What sort of fire is encompassing my being? Sometimes, I believe that I am going to lose my mind! Come to me, once more! Let me touch your lips again, save me!”


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The New-Species

I.They happily renounced the dirt and sleepiness
of lower desires –
Lead in their wings.
Not by running away from them,
Or negating them,
But by dis-empowering them.
II.Just like the act of safely difusing a bomb,
They have dissipated all these surreal shadows
by connecting with their Higher-Self
with their divinity,
and compassion,
and freedom.
 III.They overcame the denser levels of existence,
 because they’ve learnt to majestically crawl into the Divine.
IV.-These are the Ones-Who-Live-from-the-Heart!
-These are the New Species!
-Honour them!
 V.They have sacrificed their beings
 To feed the whole world…
 Their lives are a symbol of the Eucharist mystery:
 Christ-consciousness blessing the Earth
 Once more.

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‘Motto: “Power is of two kinds. One is obtained by the fear of punishment and the other by acts of love. Power based on love is a thousand times more effective and permanent than the one derived from fear of punishment.” (Mahatma Gandhi)

I have started to have a different approach on life. On everything that is happening to me, and that I cannot change; on everything that hurts. Instead of fighting it, I accept it; I embrace it. Instead of crying to God, in bitterness and agony, I say a prayer of gratitude. I share my desires with God, or more often, I just express my situation, and ask for a solution, but it is not a real asking, begging, supplicating prayer. I pray only in the giving-thanks kind of prayer. It is in this kind of prayer that my spirit is elevated.

I give thanks for everything, for every single thing that there is – for having hands and ears, for being able to speak and move, for not having a terminal illness, for waking up, for the sun, for my mother and for my sister, for my brothers, for my nephews, for the sun and the rain, for the little, cute animals that exist, for everything! After that I find my inner peace! It is essential for my personal healing.’


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We Are the Victors!

The bloody battle-field of life

Put us on our knees.


Either praying,

Or imploding with pain.

We felt the moldy mud in our mouths,

The steely stones – scratching our teeth.

Still, the fiery Phoenix in us

Arose again – a beautiful soul-sunrise.

As we are the Victors!

-The Bold!

-The Wounded!

-The Scared!

-The Rising-Again-Ones –


-Never look down on us:

We are the Victors!

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‘A possible answer to the question: “Why do we love?” We love if the person is beautiful; and we love even if the person is not so beautiful; we love if the person is rich; and we love even if the person is poor; we love not because of a human reason; we love “without a reason”; we give love as the ultimate affirmation of our true nature! Loving somebody does produce a light explosion in the other, but first of all, it explodes in you! It leads you to your true potential, because love is the ultimate mirror of your soul. Many people cannot abandon themselves to love, because they are afraid to find out who they truly are. Life, for them, is just a long, dark alley, and they sit in the corner, terrified to come out, terrified of their own beauty.

“Why would someone be terrified of beauty?” somebody might ask. They fear, because beauty is always correlated with pain; and people usually hate pain; they try to avoid it; they fight against it; and call the people that give themselves to pain – crazy! Their ego is so strong that they do not give love any chance to flower; they kill it from the very start! They are interested in money, in pleasure, in vice, in being mean; and they forget who they were, before coming here, on this earth. Love is the death of the ego; and ego is the death of love. Love is not a human, rational-based experience; love is transcendent, like a stream of electricity reflected through a bulb of glass. The bulb glass is the ego. If the glass is dirty, the perception of the light changes itself, because the bulb’s colour limits the manifestation of the light. So it is with love. The best we can do as non-human based entities, having a human experience, is to shed the bulb.

Only very few will actually manage to do that, because the process of brokenness is long-termed, and the “deeper man”, the “essence man” is always fighting the surface, the “shallow man”. Shedding the bulb is death; and to learn how to embrace death, in its purest, benign form is vital! That it is why I love you – because I am love and beauty and pain; and the process of cleansing the bulb just outlines my true essence. That is why I love you so much, because I am love infinite! Maybe you did not expect this answer, but it is just a possibility, out of many. The fact that I love you because of whom and what I am does not mean that you are unworthy of love or that your qualities are non-existent and I am just sacrificing myself for you; it means we reflect each other. I love you in order to manifest who I am; you love me, to manifest who you are. We are triangle in triangle, divine geometry.’

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