My Crown

​It has not been passed down to me

Through my bloodline.

My ancestors were common-sleepers.

I found it in the weeping ashes.

After everything burnt out.

After each tormenting thorn was engraved in my flesh.

It spoke my name, softly,

Revealing my right to reign.

Over the barren disappointments.

And bitter tears.

And utter loneliness.

And dashed hopes.

-You could have never been more Queen

Than then. When the world

Denied

Your name!

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Awakening to Fire

“I am enough! I am enough! I deserve to be loved! This is the truth, and seeing it has helped me already! Am I going to be able to heal? Yes! How, if in my own consciousness, in my own energy field, I have encoded with my own hands: ‘You are not enough’? I must strife to heal, although I have no idea how to do it! 

The way I feel is iconic for our era! We all believe that we are the by-product of someone else’s bad choices! We all believe that we are the victims of our environment and circumstances! We all believe that we cannot change our lives for good! We are all able to do that and I, being on the road to self-healing, add to the healing of the entire humanity! What you do today for yourself will mark humanity forever!”

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​The Strife to Heal

Motto: “The wound is the place light enters you.”
               [Jalaludin Rumi]

When we think of the concept of “pain”, we attach so many meanings to it, but do we actually see it as a “potential place of illumination”? No. Pain is ugly. Pain is everybody’s abandoned and denied child. We want to escape it. 

Pain is only a messenger! It indicates that a world is sick in us, and it requires our immediate attention. Pain indicates that there is an un-healed part of us. Without understanding your wounds, your shadows, you won’t be able to reach wholeness – or balance.

When you will take time to be honest with yourself; when you will see the roots of both your problems and your solutions in YOU; when you will no longer RUN, then miracles will happen in your life. And that is your divine purpose, your mission: self-healing. Because you, now, recognize that you are ONE with everything else in existence! You, now, see that humanity is in you, and you are in humanity! And both you and humanity are WORTHY of happiness, healing, and LOVE.

Whispers in the Night

I’ve whispered in the soft ear of my beloved.

It was a bewitched night.

My husky voice was too low for him to hear it.

But my soul-prayer reached the white temples of his frowned forehead.

I’ve whispered a sweet song of painful longing

after the joyful summer of our loving-hearts.

After a reconciliation day and hour.

After a kiss of healing and empowerment.

I’ve whispered those three cursed words.

And he smiled back, lost in a dreamy state.

I’ve whispered those three heavenly words.

And he ran away, in deep fear and tremble.

Will you ever come back, my love?

But no, this question is totally meaningless.

Because you are always with me.

In each vibrant whisper of the night!

Awakening to Fire

Conversations with the Higher Self (2)


‘I was thinking about the fact that I will never be able to forgive my twin. I perceive this clear, profound and precise voice, inside of me.


Until you will be ready to forgive your twin, you will not be able to forgive yourself!


“What do you mean? I don’t understand anything! Elaborate, please!”


What I mean is that you also need forgiveness, and until you are not ready to forgive another human being, you did not understand anything, and you will never be able to forgive yourself, you will never be able to find healing!

“How can I forgive others? How can I forgive myself? It is hard!”


You must understand that if they have hurt you, it doesn’t mean that they do not love you! They just functioned at the capacity that they have had at that moment! By judging them, you cut them from being; you allow them <<not to grow>>, and what you must comprehend is that the Source Itself wants you to receive love at the level that the Source is loved, so that you’ll be ready to understand the Source. You also need to transform your humanity, you need to grow. If you judge somebody, you cut them from being, and you doom them; you allow them not to grow;  you kill them;  you kill their becoming and most important, you do not remain in love. You separate yourself from The Source. You have to give up all judgment, and you have to spread love.


“I start to understand but many people commit so many errors, and if you do not apply judgment, they will believe that whatever they do, it is a good act; they will confound evil and good!”


Evil and good do not exist. There are only some moral precepts specific to certain levels of development.


“Then, how should I know what to do if there is no absolute moral behaviour?”

Growth has nothing to do with a certain moral conduct. Moral conduct imitates love. People need it, because they don’t love. If they would love, they would not need a set of rules to guide them. The more you abide in form, the less you experience and manifest love!


“That sounds sinful! Like an encouragement to sin. To break all rules. God would not say that! If You are God, you gave us the rules, now You come to us and tell us that rules are not good. How is that?”


If I gave the rules, then I have all the right to change them, but if man gave them, they are no good anyhow!


“What’s your idea? What do you want to bring new into this world?”


I want to shake once more the world and its foundations. To awaken everybody to their true identity. To make them experience the truth!


“What is The Truth?”


That they are never separated from The Source.


“If they are never separated from The Source, then why is there so much pain in the world? What kind of Source are you?”


The Source is never pain in the way people think. God is not responsible for everything that you experience, because you are a co-creator of your own reality! You must assume responsibility!


“Then you are not The Absolute!”


The Source is not a tyrant; you have to wake up! To give up all these stories of an angry god that punishes everybody! These ideas were created by man and, they come from fear and self-judgment! God doesn’t judge anybody! Everybody chooses their own path and everything happens for spiritual development! You must comprehend that by judging your twin, (we have begun from this point!), you are asleep; you are not awake!


“If I know You, then I am awake!”


Awakening is not a moment in time; it is not a revelation, but a state of being! You are awakened when you are in alignment with The Ultimate Truth, that is, being One with The Source! You are growing in awakening, if that makes sense to your mind!


“I am trying to understand!”


Try not to judge! Anybody! Each person has a unique path! You must follow your own; you must grow at your pace rate; you must find happiness now!”

“You’ve killed me with this now. I have nothing now! How can I be happy now?”


Happiness is not having. It is maintaining your clear mind. It is the peace of mind. Your peace of mind creates your external happiness, not the other way around!


“You’ve lost me here! What should I do now?”


Learn to maintain the peace of mind! Stop aggressing yourself with words and actions! Ask yourself where the place that you are not in alignment with yourself is! Stop judging! Meditate! Create joy! Be peaceful!”


“Be free! Be limitless!

Walls Crushing All Around Me

The solid barricades started to collapse
few years ago.
And, since that nefarious moment occurred,
they continued to fall down, in pity and agony.
It seemed to me as if
my entire life had no meaning, no value, no goal.
But, later on, I understood that infinite possibilities
were hiding behind walls crushing all around me.
That death was the inverted birth.
The longing of my soul dying-to-live.
The making of a warrioress
Or – the making of a goddess.
Not all will embrace her.
Not all can bear so much light.
Only the One-who-was-meant-to…
Only the One-torn-apart-and-sewn-back-with-love…

Awakening to Fire

“I am enough! I am enough! I deserve to be loved! This is the truth, and seeing it has helped me already. Am I going to be able to heal? Yes! How? If in my own consciousness, in my own energetic field, I have encoded with my own hands: ‘You are not enough!’ I must strive to self-heal, although I have no idea how to do it! The way I feel is iconic for our era!

We all believe that we are the by-product of someone else’s bad choices! We all believe that we are the victims of our environment and circumstances! We all believe that we cannot change our lives for good! We are all able to do it, and I, being on the road towards self-healing, add to the healing of the entire humanity!What you do, today, for yourself, will mark humanity forever!”

N.B. If you are interested in my romance novel, ‘Awakening to Fire’, you can order it by accessing the following link:

Awakening to Fire

 

The Crippled Seeds of Greatness

They dropped like inflamed meteors

from the turbulent sky of my remembrance,

killing the defenceless, little-creatures:

feelings of aliveness, self-worth, and gratitude.

 

These dark mental-entities

disrupted the blue calmness of my awakening,

but the cause of this Inferno

abided inside.

 

I accepted the bombs.

I nurtured them –

these infamous children-of-destruction.

The terrorist was my own wounded inner-child.

 

Salvation came from me.

By loving the bleeding parts of my heart.

Deeply buried in the soil of hope,

the crippled seeds of greatness – resurrected.

 

Awakening to Fire

Day 68: The Valley of the Shadows of Death


Motto: “The only thing we have to fear is fear itself.”
(Franklin D. Roosevelt)


‘Though I walk through the Valley of the Shadows of Death, I will fear no evil, because I am with me! I have always feared being alone, and now that I am truly alone, in the most authentic way, I have realized that I have still value; that fear is useless, because I was loved from the beginning of Time. We cannot lose what is ours – and knowing that releases us from any kind of fear-bondage! What is meant to go – will go; what is meant to stay – will stay; and if by chance what was meant to stay – goes, then it will come back! What was meant to love you, will love you until the very end, no matter how developed you are or not; no matter how beautiful you are or not – because it is not dependent on outward circumstances!


In the darkest night of the Soul, I whisper to myself: Faint not! Hold on! Tomorrow comes the Song, the Joy! Or how a friend of mine would say: <<Mon cher, wait! Patience!>>’

N.B. If you are interested in my romance novel, ‘Awakening to Fire’, you can order it by accessing the following link:

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Steps towards Empowerment

The first time you fell down in Black Despair.

The first time you got betrayed by a Smiling Judas.

The first time you were Utterly Abandoned.

The first time your heart was cut by Sharp Thorns of Love.

 

They were all – transforming-Steps toward your Ultimate Empowerment.

Agents of Freedom destroying the filthy bonds of your inner-slavery.

Now – you are liberated!

Now – you are Whole!

 

The light that you were Diligently Seeking

Was always inside of Your Own Soul.

You are a Spiritual Sun

Sparkling in a Crepuscular, Desolate World.